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Be Brave my Heart. Have Courage my Soul.
January 6, 2016
I'm new to the blogging world, a blogging virgin I guess. Not for long, though. Although I’m new to blogging, I’ve been writing for a very long time. I have so many journals with ideas in them, conversations with God, sketches and artwork, and a journal my husband and I use to write back and forth to each other. My phone is usually everywhere I am so when a good idea or thought comes to me I write it down before I forget. The “notes” app on my phone is full of random thoughts and ideas. I love expressing myself through writing because it seems like the easiest way for me to get everything out. A sheet of paper or a computer screen never interrupts me! I feel like I have so much to say but when it comes out of my mouth it either makes no sense or I just fumble around with my words. Either that or no one can hear me, literally, because I’m just not loud enough. I really do try to be loud. My husband always tells me “speak up no one can hear you” or “say it again, babe”. By that time I just give up and say nothing. Does anyone else feel like that? Like no one ever hears you? But when I’m writing it just comes. No pressure. No need to speak up or be louder and my desire to start blogging kind of started there. So… that’s what I’m doing. I told myself to forget about what everyone else may say and just write! Blogging is a one way for me to be heard. To get my voice out there. It’s a big step for me. It’s not just writing in my journal or jotting down a quick note in my phone that no one will ever see. I’m writing and whoever stumbles on this blog will know my thoughts. Somewhat unsettling!
Aside from starting a blog, I’ve made other significant changes in my life recently. For one, I’ve really been trying to grow in the area of communication. But it’s been difficult to say the least. Naturally, I’d rather keep to myself, and I prefer smaller, more intimate groups of people rather than larger groups. That type of behavior is not ALWAYS typical of me but for the most part I’d say it makes up a big part of who I am. So why did I decide to work on my communication skills? Firstly, and for once in my life, I can say it was not to please anyone but myself. I made this decision by myself and for myself. That’s the only true way to start something, so that it’s lasting and true. I’m the type of person that simply won’t be pushed into something. A gentle nudge may work at times but to force something on me will only cause me to shut down entirely. Secondly, I was tired of not growing and wanted more. Most of the time I enjoy being alone and quiet and that’s ok. But that trait left me lacking in many other areas and I wanted to improve. The last reason I decided to work out the communication kinks in my life is because I feel I have something to offer. I have notes piling up on my phone, journals with thoughts and ideas, and words God has spoken to me. I don’t want to regret not saying something just because I’m shy or quiet or scared of what others may think. I’m over it and want to challenge myself to dream and grow!
We all have natural tendencies. These tendencies make up our personalities. Each personality is unique to you but each one is needed and there is not one personality better than the other. But many times we use our tendencies or personalities as excuses to stop growing and/or step out of our comfort zone. I know I have used mine as a crutch. My shyness, quietness, and people-pleasing mindset was becoming more of a burden than just a “personality”. I was leaning too much on what I thought were weaknesses and never focused on my strengths. We all have weaknesses and we need to work together to build each other up. We were made for relationships. Any good relationship we have, whether it be with family, friends, coworkers etc., should be based on one another’s strengths. It should be focused on the positive, not the negative.
Where I have lack, perhaps you can make it up. I am ok with who I am. God designed me like this for a reason. God designed you the way He did for a reason. There are things you can do and people you can help that I can’t and vice versa. So what is it you can do, and who can you reach that no one else can?
My latest “communications endeavor” included sharing a message for a women’s night at my church. I wanted to share and it had been on my heart for some time to do so but that first step was so hard. So, I just leaped! I simply shared things that were on my heart and my Pastors were encouraging and kind enough let me do so. It was one of the scariest things I’ve ever done, but you know what? I loved it! I may have stumbled and stuttered here and there but it removed my focus from myself and placed it on OTHERS. And I don’t want that to be the last time. I want to continue to grow and push myself to be better. I want to help others in any way I can. Are you ready to jump? It’s like riding some crazy rollercoaster. You won’t always know what will happen around that next bend but that’s what makes life exciting! I’ll end this first blog with a quote I love:
I’m ready for the next adventure. Are you?
Be brave, my heart. Have courage, my soul. – Unknown